I have a lot of experience swimming in an indoor pool but much prefer a lake, even though I have a healthy dose of fear about long-distance swimming in open water.
What if I:
In fact, I've had a few real-life scares.
Nevertheless, I love swimming and playing in the water. I dive, kick, splash, paddle, flip and do underwater headstands, hold my breath and do forward and backward somersaults. I laugh from the inside out.
When I swim without keeping track of the number of strokes, or laps or amount of time lapsed, I fall into an effortless and synchronized rhythm of cardiac effort, breath and technique. I am soothed. The feel of water embracing me, the solitude and the flotation, is pure freedom incarnate.
Not all swims are equally perfect, but this weekend in a quiet lake, I was “one with the water”. I swam like my idea of a barracuda - strong, fast and streamlined, barely lifting my head out of the water for air. Then, I stopped.
I was gripped with an irrational fear that I had got too far from the shore and didn't have the physical strength to get back. I turned to face the dock and I was only 60 meters away and there were no waves! I had a stock market crash of self-confidence. I resisted the panic and did the "dead-man's float" to calm myself. Then, without any difficulty I swam back to shore.
What brings you great pleasure? And, possibly fear? Have you had any stock market crashes of self-confidence lately? What did you do?
Keep you posted,
My family, relationships, movement, nature, flexibility of mind, exploration of alternative perspectives & openness are central to my life.